She By Saul Williams

i simply want to be
the love song
dangling from her lips
unfiltered
ever burning at the end
the beginning forever
at her lips
my dreams
on the tip of her tongue

she breathes
clouds of mystery
once mine
smoke signals
another lifetime
now dissolved
into thin air

and when
the mystery is gone
so is the fire

maybe if i came in packs
(like wolves)
but there’d still be the warning
for pregnant women

love’s suffering addiction
can turn hearts yellow

i want to be
the one she calls
on her cigarette break
not the cause of it

~Saul Williams

fave. poem. ever.

Fluffy White Clouds

"I think perhaps love thrives on unlikely circumstance and chance. Life thrives on these principles, and is life not love? and love not life?" -- Brandon Boyd

I often tell stories that gain the response: "That would happen to you." Over the past few days, a realization has occurred in my mind. Actually, reinforced really. I feel like I always happen to be at the right place at the right moment. It's funny how things work out. You spend a certain amount of time in one place; You do things in a certain order; Your plans are faulted by 'unlikely circumstance and chance'. By making little mistakes, like taking a wrong turn or waking up later than expected, sometimes you are able to experience things that appear accidental. Many of these experiences end up irrelevant, but others can be the catalyst to something of greater importance - a funny memory, an interesting connection, a stronger bond... I guess you could call it fate, destiny if you will, but I am sure it all happens for a reason.

The Lie by Chad Kultgen

"... she might have actually been doing the same thing I was that night, trying to hold on to something she used to love, something that used to be the best thing in her life. But no matter how tight she squeezed, it was gone. I think we both knew it that night. But, like I said, neither one of us did anything about it."

I'm not going to lie. This book hits me pretty hard. I know that I constantly give off the I-don't-give-a-fuck kind of vibe and I try pretty hard to act emotionless, but reading the line above definitely brought a couple tears to my eyes. Not because I'm sad that things aren't the way they were before, but I'd just rather not be the reason for someone else's possible unhappiness. I honestly think that things have changed for the better, even if that means that I've lost something I care about. I'd rather prevent the unfortunate than pretending that there won't be any to come. It may be a pessimistic approach, but you really don't know me. _____ doesn't deserve that and until this phase ends, no one really does.