2009 vs. 2010.

I don't know if it was the new year, the regrets of this time last year, or just pure coincidence that brought forth the changes to my personality and overall outlook on life, but the fact still remains: the 2010 version of me is very different from the former version of myself. Let's go ahead and compare them:

2009:

• Motto(s): 'Do what you want now; Deal with the consequences later.'; 'Experience it now and then learn from regrets.'
  
• Pimpin all over the world.
• MAJOR player status.
• Drink and smoke. Parties, parties, parties.
• 'Take it out your pocket and show it. Then throw it like this way, that way.'
  
• Fuck boys. (Literally).
• Never satisfied.
• IDGAF mindset.
  

2010:

• Motto: 'Prevent regret.'; 'Learn from your mistakes.'
  
• Resolutions to add to the rule book: 1. Avoid leading people on. 2. Don't mix business and pleasure.
• Cut back. Both in drinking/smoking and in spending.
• Fuck boys. (Not literally).
• Fairly content.
• Highly contemplative, fairly analytical.
  

I'm trying to stay under the radar. I'm trying to become a better person. I'm trying to focus more on myself. thus far, I would say I've succeeded for the most part, but I am nowhere near being impressed with myself yet. There are a lot of things I feel I need to improve on and I'm actually trying to change for the better. As cheesy and trite as it sounds, I feel like a lot of this realization came when in church one day, listening to the sermon. What I learned that day is that you can't always just live life as it passes you by; that having a standard to go by will not always get you the best, but you will never end up with the worst; and that there will always be better days. As aforementioned, whether it's good or bad-- it's just a phase... Everything is just a phase.